The Anonymous Meme

[acoustics1220]

Leave an anonymous comment saying anything. Anything. Tell me a secret, tell me about your day. Pour your heart out. Tell me what you really think of me, if you want. Say whatever you like.

Tell me a secret... Any topic is fair game. Ask a question, something general or something you have always wanted to know but could not ask me face to face. I will answer if you tell me to. Post your comments anonymously; no IP logging, no cheating.

(If you don't want to comment here, send me an email, use an alias LJ)

This is your space to speak.

Comments

[river-soul.livejournal.com]

I'm pretty sure you'd know it was me, even if I typed it all anonymously so why bother?

I think you're an amazing person but you don't give yourself enough credit. You deserve to be happy, even though deep down inside I think you don't actually believe that. I wish things could be better for you in relation to certain topics (you know the ones I'm talking about) and that you could free yourself of your burdens and live a happy life. You have a lot to offer someone one day.


I just wish you weren't passive aggressive about some things. You always offer me an out whenever we make plans to hang out but you do it in such a way that tells me you expect me to disappoint you or that I am really not interested in hanging out. You make yourself seem very put upon by this and the victim of something. I can recognize this because it's what I use to do a lot and sometimes still do. It just aggravates me a lot and makes me snappy with you, which I shouldn't be.

Ugh, I sound like a bit of a bitch.

[acoustics1220.livejournal.com]

It doesn't say anything about me not responding...

Passive aggressive: (as in my text) You didn't sound bitchy (to me). I give you an out not to be passive aggressive. I do it because I don't want you (in general, a friend) to regret the time you spend with me. I do expect my friends to disappoint me sometimes. It happens.

To further explain, the regret stems from a friendship in college. I joined a writing class, (where I met the awesomest teacher EVER), and there was a girl I immediately bonded with. Ultimate friend. After a semester and summer of friendship, we signed up for another writing class together. It became a routine, class, lunch, part ways for other classes.

One day she was...really overwhelmed with things, and just...tired, and she had to bail on me. We were going to go to a concert, but she couldn't because she promised her sister she would be there to help her with prom prep (all that girly stuff). I understood, and it still hurt, but there are circumstances I'm not explaining, and I won't because it's too much to go into. After she bailed on me though, we continued with our lunch, and then she kind of just...spazzed. And in a fit just said 'Our friendship is great, and I love the things we can talk about, but you're so clingy, and it's just too much sometimes. It's flattering, but...' And then she stopped. She did all this while rubbing her face and just looking so...put upon.

And that's when I really realized I needed to let go. She and I are still FB friends. I don't initiate anything with her because honestly, all I remember are those last words. Then she moved away, and a year later returned; we haven't talked.

I try not to be clingy, but I know I am. I'm a possessive person. I see it. The fact that you LET me be so effing crazy doesn't help it, so I have to consciously remind myself to try and not become a suffocating, tiring person to be around.

Though I would like you to explain the 'victim' part. I don't understand it, though I've tried piecing it together.

When I give you an out, it's purely an out. Whatever works out will work out. You know I enjoy being around you, but sometimes I do wonder why you stick around. And I don't need any reassurances as to being a good friend, etc etc. I know I need to work on certain things about myself and how I am socially. I just usually don't see the point.